September 20, 2008
Well since Chris published his final post I thought I might include that I’m not done…yet. I added 5 days to my 40. I also had a 2 day fast of water in there. Don’t do that unless your told by God to. I seriously thought I was going to die. Anyway I’ll be done with my 45 tomorrow (sunday) and will begin breaking the fast Monday morning.
Thanks for your support everyone.
Dustin
September 16, 2008
Well, for anyone who’s interested… I did it. I made it 40 days. That was the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but it has left me feeling more accomplished than I ever have in my life. I learned a lot about what God has been doing in me in the last season, and I’m so thankful for His grace to help me endure.
I haven’t posted in forever because there wasn’t much to say. It was just, HARD. To anyone who is contemplating fasting for 40 days, I recommend it, but only if you know you are called to do it. Otherwise, you’ll just wind up disappointing yourself. But I can say, that every moment of it was worth it. It was worth it to truly learn that through Christ, I can do all things. Every temptation, every struggle was completely worthwhile to know that i was obedient to God, and He is pleased with me. Every time I smelled food and wanted so desperately just to taste it was all worthwhile to taste it in the end and know that I conquered my flesh. I won!
September 2, 2008
I’m so hungry…for God. One of the biggest lessons I have learned so far during this 40 day food fast has been how to be hungry for God. I have learned that if I can be this hungry for food then I NEED to be even more hungry for God. I have always been really good about keeping God in everything that I do, but I am loving this time with Him. I love that in everything I do I take Him along and ask Him loads of questions. I spend time loving on Him and receiving love from Him. I have had to learn how to receive love from Him even though I don’t “feel” it.
What I have discovered about God’s love is that it is ever present. I know that isn’t anything new, but I have seen His love in a deeper way. I have seen Him be faithful in times where I have been unfaithful. I have seen His love for people when they are acting completely against Him. I have seen His passion for the lost and I have loved to see them grow and find Him. His love for us is so consistent and constant. He loves us beyond measure. He loves us greater than we can ever fathom. I love the idea that God’s love in inexplorable. It cannot be explored enough. I love that I have all my life and eternity to find out how and why God loves me so much.
Thank you for your love Father,
Dustin
